TRY ME!

How long does it take to realize that something is missing from your life? When is that you realize that something in your life is not right? When do you realize that even if something is not right in your life you cannot fix it?
The general outline, say the blueprint, of a Normal life is 1.be born 2.grow up 3. Go to school 4. Upon right age, get married 5. Rear some children 6.get old 7. Roll over and die.
Being a rational and conscientious human being I beg to differ. Life doesn’t have to be that rigid, that pre-defined, it shouldn’t be. What is laid in front of us by the Society or whatever it is that writes the conventions of a regular human life may be just about right for those who don’t have the desire or the courage or the moral strength to challenge them. In our search for convenience, our search for a path traced in black white, our desire to tag along- just like our parents and their parents before them did- we follow blindly. We are aware that we have eyes through which we can see. We are aware that we have a logical and rational faculty by which to think and reason. But all of these and more, we give up, surrender-to the unexisting god of societal conventions. And thus we sacrifice our souls- the real we- to the grind-house of day-to-day life. We don’t give a thought to why we are happy at the birth of a child or sad at the death of a man, we just know we should be happy or sad because that’s what our parents have been doing and that’s what their parents before them did.
They say every human life has a purpose. I say they don’t know what they are talking about. When you say every human life has a purpose what exactly do you mean? Do you mean that every human life Is made to go to schools and take exams, or do you mean that every human life has the purpose of marriage, or do you mean that every human life has the purpose to bring another human life on earth- a life that in the first place didn’t ask to come through and which if it is born in this world has a 99% probability of being every bit a zombie as you.
What really is the purpose of life then? I think the real purpose of human life, the real destiny of human life, the real culmination of a thousand years of sequential evolution, is to realize what you are, who you are, where you come from and where you will go after your time is come. With all the conspiracy that’s going on within and without you in the name of living, with all that you are made to do in the name of living, with all the chains of social, moral and spiritual obligations that are imposed upon you by people who don’t know the first thing about the real society, the real morality, the real spirituality- you are bound to loose the big picture, the real picture, the ONLY picture.
The question then is not whether you have to challenge the superficial implications of the society but whether you are game enough to challenge them. To know the answer to this question you just have to look around you, look at the people around you, look at the plantation of falsity, look at all the piss and shit around you, look at what has been made of the nature around you, look at what you are made to do, look at what they make you give.
Now that you have read all the way through this not so subtle work you are thinking
This is probably the work of some over crazed frustrated communist
This is shocking.
This is probably on of those feel-good bullshits.
But this is true
Every human being has a thing called self respect in them. Self respect is the father of cynicism and cynicism is the father of skepticism which in turn is the father of self realization. Cynicism, Skepticism is what makes human being special. It is what makes you search for that short-cut alternative to your teacher’s boring and complex solution of a mathematical problem. Skepticism is what makes you doubt when your wife tells you that she went out to have tea with an old college friend when in fact she had been lying in bed all the afternoon with your local club manager.
Man is by nature a skeptic inquirer. But as is the trend of our society, our schools we hate everything natural. We like nature as long as it produces huge pumpkins for us to eat, as long as it produces beautiful roses or us to smell and as long as it keeps the snow in the mountains intact for us to take photographs of. We forget that skepticism, inquisitiveness e.t.c. are the qualities that have been selectively perfected in the human gene by the continuous effort of nature. And thus, whenever and in whomever we notice these qualities we tend to crush them with clinical precision, as did Hitler in systematically killing all the Jews on his sight.
This is why our societies and their norms, their values and most important of all -their mechanisms, are dysfunctional. I know I am not the first to make this discovery but then- I can say with a hundred percent certainty that I am the first to make this discovery and suggest that we don’t change them.
To change the way people live, to change the way they behave, to change the way they think would require nothing less than the return of Stone Age. Because then we will at least have our priorities straight. Because then we will know that we don’t need a hundred and one storied buildings to live in, we don’t need two storied Airbus jumbo jets to transport ourselves from one place to the other and that we don’t need nuclear bombs to defend ourselves. We don’t need to judge others or ourselves be judged by others, that we don’t need money crunching educational institutions to educate us, that we don’t need hypocrites as our teachers in those institutions who don’t know the first thing about Knowledge.
What I suggest is that we don’t commit the folly of judging other people because that is the point from where all the wrongs originate. Every human spirit is independently individual and has the right to move along its own path on the pace decided by itself and only itself.
What I suggest is that we will once in a while notice skeptic, inquisitive, eager and sometimes anxious people as we toil along in the journey of our lives. I suggest that we don’t display the Hitler syndrome and let them live their distinct lives. If you will not positively help them in having their own ways at least don’t commit the sin of creating a two storied Mount Everest on their ways.
What I suggest is that we our self think what we are living for.
Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror, straight into your eyes and not recognized yourself? Have you ever felt that strange voice inside your head saying "who am I?" You bet your ass that the answer to both these questions is a univocal yes in my case. And I can tell you that if someone else asks me the same questions that I have just asked you I will tell him to sob off, that he is what 45,50? That something is not right inside his head and that he better go and see a shrink. That I am still too young to give a damn about all these freaking questions. That the world is too damn full of problems, too full of questions without you posing a couple of them at me. I bet not just me, it’s what we would all do. What with all our parents being out there to worry about us or we ourselves being parents with a couple of kids to look after, it is but natural for us to ignore these questions.
What I suggest is ignore them. Ignore them damn questions, for what are they but mere questions. But then, before ignoring them once, at least once, just for the sake of curiosity or maybe for the sake of good old skepticism make a conscious effort to answer them, honestly. And then ignore them all you want.
And then maybe listen to the song by Justin Timberlake that goes
What goes around goes around goes around comes all the way back around.
What goes around goes around goes around comes all the way back around.